Wednesday, October 22, 2008Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Feeling really uneasy this week somehow. Just some personal feelings upon myself. I tink im far too detached from the world sometimes ._. Will be kinda in daze if people talk to me nowadays. And i wont really feel like initiating small talk by myself nowadays.
I tink i may just have sudden mood changes and turn into a nasty bastard. It will be as though 1) another person possess me or 2) my anger accumulated too much and develops into nuclear. :/ When that happens, no matter what people do eg. block my way, or just eating lollipops, i will just go RAWRARAWRAWR! WAFSEGWERGBERIUBFE@#%#^%$*$%T$#%#$. if not i will say really nasty but yet stupid things.
*coughs* i hope that doesnt happen tho *try my best to stay optimistic*
Im a contradicting person as always. never once manage to figure out myself why so.
Went for the extra JLPT lecture scheduled yesterday, hmmmm it was really pretty useful. But there is very few people inside the class whom i really know.
I tried my best to sit with strangers but the empty desks nxt to them are all used for putting their stuffs so i ended up sitting at the last empty row by myself. -_- im so gonna keep my mouth shut cos the lecturer couldnt even hear me. and its kinda hard to click with cliques. Luckily theres one or two familar faces who i can approach nxt week.
The sucky thing is that lesson's at 6 and i end at 3. i tink im going to skip some of the lectures from time to time
Screwed up the audition today,like REAL BAD, wakakakkaka. Everytime i slowed down the tempo, my mind would go blank esp when it comes to chords. Guess i have to really get used to playing it slow *tends to rush*
Nxt 2 days will be SOBA in LSCT. Kinda hate events, but since there'll be cca pts and the task im assigned sounds really simple... :X Duty time: 1-5pm tho ._.
But no blazers and so on. Just hope im not in a daze mode that day to screw things up
Having a lot of regrets now just at the age of 18. I should learn not to regret things that i done.
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